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A Public Announcement

Hi everyone. This post is one that I've been putting off for quite some
time now, but I feel that it's time to write it. First though, a little
background for those of you who aren't on my Friend's list and who are only
able to see my public posts.

Back in late March and into April, I know that many of you noticed that I
had no public posts. This is because I felt that what I had to say
shouldn't be posted publicly at that point. I still feel that way, however,
I need to very briefly explain something before I can give my big news. The
thing that I have, up to this point, kept out of public posts is that Jim
and I are in the middle of a divorce. A lot of things have happened since
March, and a lot of things have changed for me.

But, as with all things in life I felt I had two choices. I could sit here
and feel sorry for myself or I could move on. Moving on seemed to be the
better option, although there were obviously times when it didn't seem as
though it would happen. The thing is though, in most ways, I truly have
moved on.

One other thing that I've kept out of public entries until now, is my main
reason for writing this entry. I've pretty much tried to keep this news
fairly quiet because I haven't wanted anyone to be hurt by it, and I didn't
want to cause any problems. The thing is, I've been doing a lot of thinking
over the last several days, and I've been wondering who's being hurt more in
this; the people I'm trying to protect, or the person who I'm going to be
writing about. I had a talk with someone yesterday who helped me to put
things into perspective, and I feel that it's time to bring this out into
the open. Personally, I'd like nothing more than to climb on top of a
building and yell so loud that the entire world hears me, but since that's
really not an option, nor is it even remotely possible, I figured the next
best thing was to write about it here.

The last thing I wanted was a relationship with anybody. I wanted friends,
yes, but a relationship wasn't something I felt I wanted or needed. Things
never seem to go the way we think they should though. For the past almost
three months, I've gotten to know masterofmusings extremely well.
We've formed an incredible bond, have so many common interests, and have
this inexplicable connection with each other. In many ways it's been a
struggle, and we've had some pretty rough times, but we've managed to get
through things together. Despite the fact that neither of us wanted a
relationship, it's happened, and it's absolutely incredible.

On November 21st of this year, Bruce and I will be meeting for the first
time in person. This is a day that we've both been looking forward to for
several weeks now, and although we're both extremely nervous and scared, at
least for me, the excitement is there, and each day it feels more real.

Again, my intention by writing about this here is not to hurt anyone, but I
also didn't feel that I was being fair to Bruce or to myself by keeping
something that has made a world of difference in my life more private from
many people. So now it's out, and I couldn't be more thrilled to have Bruce
in my life!!!!